There Is This FUCKING THING CALLED LOVE! Its very hurting and you can go mad if you love the person too much. I;m already in a very bad state. But seems like no one understand. You sayy one but do another thing! What the hell?! NO MOOD?! Go and die. I've got myself in a fucking mess. Whatever other people do is my mistake huh? Ohh, thats right. Its always me who get blamed for everything right? What a pity. I've become a total freak. In fact, sooner i'm gonna go MAD. You dont treat other girls like thiss?! Why me?! What the fuck have you been thinking about me?! I'm a WHORE, SLUT, BITCH?! Get your facts right! I'm not any of those. I'm just a GIRL who gets in a big mess because of very bad circumstances around her. UNDERSTAND?!

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2 Dayys Left!

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Just Celebrated my mum's birthdayy. She is 39. Damn she's old. And my dearest Nabeel is going in another 2 dayys! What the hell?! Haix. Two months past so fast babyy. I'm Mad!

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What am I? A doll? You are just back to Square one. The moment you're in bad mood, I get screwed. Why? I don't like getting screwed okaye? I helped you and you didnt even sayy a thanks. That one NEVERMIND. But you said you wont hurt or fight with me?! Then, now? What is so in me that I get screwed so much. I wanted to tell you about my hair. Hoping you will sayy something nice. But you didnt even care! You guyys might think its not so imp. But the small things a guyy sayy makes a big impact. UNDERSTAND THAT okaye? Please?! Not that girls are VERY LAME. They are just looking for their own guyy to sayy sweet things. Is that a very wrong thing to do? Nvm. I dont wanna sayy anything. Anywayys, My hair is super short. VERY SHORT!!! Bye.

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Teri Ore.

dil kho gaya, ho gaya… kisika…
(I lost my heart, it became… someone else’s…)
ab raasta, mil gaya…. khushi ka…
(a way to the heart, I found… of happiness…)
aankhon mein hai, khwaab sa… kisika…
(in my eyes, is a dream… of someone…)
ab raasta, mil gaya… khushi ka…
(a way to the heart, I found… of happiness…)

rishta nayaa, rabba… dil chhu raha hai…
(a new relation, God… the heart has begun touching now…)
kheenche mujhe koi dorr, Teri Ore… ( Teri Ore)
(and a string pulls me towards you… -towards you- )

Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore… hai Rabba…
(towards you… towards you… towards you… O God!)
Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore…
(towards you… towards you… towards you…)

Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore… hai Rabba…
(towards you… towards you… towards you… O God!)
Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore…
(towards you… towards you… towards you…)

khulti fizayein…
(opening breezes…)
ghulti ghataayein…
(and soul-stirring scapes…)
sir pe naya hai aasmaan….
(seems like a new sky above us…)

chaaro dishayein…
(all the four directions…)
hass ke bulayein…
(call for us, with laughter…)
yun sab hue hain meherbaan…
(this is how everyone is being generous…)

haan… humein to yahi rabba…
(yeah… all this, my God…)
kasam se pata hai…
(I swear is all I know…)
dil pe nahi, koi zorr… koi zorr..
(that there’s no forcing the heart… no forcing…)

Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore… hai Rabba…
(towards you… towards you… towards you… O God!)
Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore…
(towards you… towards you… towards you…)

Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore… hai Rabba…
(towards you… towards you… towards you… O God!)
Teri Ore… Teri Ore… Teri Ore…
(towards you… towards you… towards you…)

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Selamat Hari Raya!


Its Hari Raya and I'm having NO COLLECTIONS. What The Hell??? Okaye. Nvm. Things have been going good these dayys. Very happy. But there is something which is seriously aching in me. I don't know what. I dont wanna let things in a big mess. Don't want to regret again. I'm Sorry. Well, Its raya. Lets Enjoyy and Gett some MONEYY!

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46 More Dayys;

Haix. Doing the stupid English Project. So tired. And I SO HATE AFIF. He like so totally Sabo-ed me during assembly by calling my index number for some stupid question! And the best part is, he gave me the wrong answer. How nice of him? Idiot. Well, I just hit him on his shoulder in front of everyone at the stage. He deserves it. Afif, take note; If i ever were to be an MC, YOU ARE SO DEAD! I will Sabo you like no one's business.  And ya, people sayy I walked up to the stage like a gangster. some said I CATWALK. I'm so sorry but Too bad, thats the wayy i walk. Don't like it, just shut the fuck up. And I seriously don't know whyy, this event is in everyone's mouth. So nice to talk abt it meh? NONS. Its just a stupid quiz answer. Its not MICHAEL JACKSON dancing in our school or President S.R Nathan coming to our school right? Haix. People are so annoying. And very lame. I'm called the "Bukit Batok Girl". All thanks to MUHD AFIF BIN KASMANI. Applauds. I'll get my revenge soon AFIF!

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48 More Dayys;

I'm Bored. School Is Opening TOM!!
Not all my HOMEWORK ARE DONE!
English Feature Article?! NTH DONE!
WTF!!! 

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Vaarayo...


Vaarayo Vaarayo kadhal kola
Poovodu Pesadha kaatru illai
Yen indha kadhalo netru illai
Neeye sol maname

Vaarayo Vaarayo Monalisa
Pesamal pesudhe kangal leysa
Naldorum naan undan kadhal daas’a
Ennodu vaa dhiname
Ennodu vaa dhiname

Yenge Yenge oru malarndendro naan thaan
Un kaiyin kangal poo naan
Nam kadhal yaavum thaen thaan…(mg.com)

Poaven Poaven nee bodhai kollum paadum
Manam kaatrai pole odhum
Unnai kadhal kangal thedum

Oho le le le le Kadhal illai
Sei sei sei sei malai varai

Un silai azhaghai vizhigalai naan viyanthen
Ivarodhu sernthala Cinderella

Vaarayo Vaarayo kadhal kola
Poovodu Pesadha kaatru illai
Yen indha kadhalo netru illai
Neeye sol maname
Neeye sol maname

Neeye neeye anda joliyathin saayal
Un vegam endan kudal
Ini thevai illai oodal…(mg.com)

Theeye theeye naan thittikindra theeye
Yennai muttam idhu vaaye
Idal muttam kulirpaaye

Nee nee nee nee my fair lady
Vaa vaa vaa en kadhal jodi

Naan mudhal mudhalaay ezhudhiya kadhal isai
Adhurku vaathada shruti nee

Vaarayo Vaarayo Monalisa
Pesamal pesudhe kangal leysa
Naldorum naan undam kadhal daas’a

Ennodu vaa dhiname
Ennodu vaa dhiname
Ennodu vaa dhiname

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50 dayys more;

Thank You for TODAYY.

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52 dayys more;


I've been watching movies, movies and movies! LOLS. I'm so tired. I didnt even touch my homework. Wow. And ya, It has Passed 1 week. Its successful! Yea me! LAME. I know. Okaye. I'm so damn tired. BTW, I bought my Raya dress. A Baju Kurong. Pink. HOT PINK. My Sister bought black. But we can exchange it. Lols. Blogg tmr. Bye.

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54 dayys more;

I'm gonna go Raya Shopping at Geylang. Ya. So fast? I'm not really sure whatt I'm going to buyy though. Lols. Kebaya? Baju Kurung? Or whatt? I dont know. I wanted to go Raya Shopping when its more near to Raya. It will have more stuffs and would be cheaper. Nvm. I'll see whatt I want. Hope I get What I want. Facebook having some problems. Damn, can't playy SORORITY LIFE LA! Haix. GTG. Bye.

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55 days more;


Hmmm. I'm Bored. I've got nth to blog abt.

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56 more days;




56 Dayys left. I am so addicted to SORORITY LIFE! Its so fun! Lol. I was so tired yesterdayy that I just came back home, break fast and slept. And work up todayy morning. I don't know whatt made me so TIRED. I'm hoping for the best. Todayy is the first dayy of SEPT HOLIDAYYS. Im planning to studyy, but the best thing is thatt, my books are UNDER THE TABLE. So I've got nothing to studyy! Wow. Huffs. Hmmm. I'm having schools during holidayys. Haix. All the Science Practical!!! Haiyoo. I'm hungry and I'm fasting!!! Haix. Okaye. I'll get back to playing SORORITY LIFE! LOLS.

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58 More days;



Hmmm. I'm having so much of fun irritating people. In Computer Lab for AV/IT now. Before this had a talk with Liana. She was giving me so much of advices. Useful Ones though. Lols. Thanks girl. And I hope your problem gets better soon. I seriously find them as Primary School Kids. Just Slap Them. Lols. Anyways, it has been almost 2 successful days. I hope it gets better soon. Just a tip: Focus on your studies and don't betrayy me. You don't get anything. I hope you change and be a better person in life. Geddit? I really do care for you, thats the reason whyy I agrred to your "60 Days Pauses!" Okaye? Make sure you prove to me! And later don't blame me if you don't do well. After 60 dayys, don't do anything stupid. I hope you know whatt I mean! And some BITCHES, pls FARK OFF. Since we're not talking doesnt mean, you can have HIM. He is still mine. DREAM ON!
Anywayy, I'll blog when I reach home. Byee.

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59 More Dayys;




Hmmm. There is an agreement. For 60 dayys. A pause between us. Re-united on 31st October. He told me that after this 60 dayys he would be a better person in life and our relationship would be more stronger. He also said that in these 60 dayys we can realise how much we really miss each other. I hope I really can OVERCOME this. I don't wanna cry FOR HIM in these 60 dayys. I want to achieve in these 60 dayys. No more calls, or smses. I want to prove that I can live without msging or calling him. I must do it. I have to be determined. Well, I do miss him. But I know that this is for our own good. I trust you alot. I hope you don't betrayy me. Just be a better person after these 60 dayys. Keep your promises. Thats all. Well, I still do care and I still Love You. But I'm just not going to bother. Te amo. Thats all.

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I had to go through all these shitty stuffs all by myself. Wow. If you think being so strong is easy, why not try being strong enough to tolerate everyone's actions. I feel that I'm getting onto my nerves. What is your fucking problem? My only support, Love, Energy and Happiness being gone so soon. I don't want that to happen. Telling you my feeling is wrong. Showing Anger is wrong. Having Moodswings is wrong. Tell me whatt else is wrong? I've been seeing myself as a worrier. Worried about everything. Don't put the blame on me. I never blamed you for my character or studies. I usually, no, ALWAYS blame MYSELF for YOUR LIFE AND MINE. Cool huh? Standing Ovation La! Can give me the award for being the MOST PATIENT, MOST FORGIVABLE AND MOST QUIET AWARD! Wow. I'll be honoured. I know people aren't perfect. Thats the reason mistakes are made and forgiven. I can't be your perfect girlfriend. I too have some mistakes in me. Some can be changed but not all. Don't judge me, unless you have lived my shitty life. I dont blame you. I blame myself. FOR BEING SO.......... Nvm. Will someone understand me. If being in Love is so heart-breaking, why must even god create the LOVE between ADAM and EVE. Whyy? Why must there be heart which can be broken? Why must there be a Feeling called LOVE, when the only thing it could do was to go around and break peoples' heart. ANTI-LOVE? How long have I been going through this? Someone tell me! I lost count. I see couples in mY SCHOOL walking happily. We were once like that. BUT NOW? Things have changed and people have changed drastically. The only thing I do at school is, SCRIBBLING ON AFIF'S TABLE. Its shows my entire feelings. Pity the table. And yea, guess what? I've statrted self-pitying myself. Wonderful aint it? It makes me feel better. Haix. I have no more tears to cry!!! Arghhh. I feel damn EFFED UP!

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I might as well, drink this so much and end my life. Told him not to, he eventually did. You never give respect to my words at all. You have never. I refrain from bothering but I just cant help. I feel like a person with no mouth to speak up. You have no idea what were the words spoken by thatt BITCH. Okaye? You didn't have to make me fed up. I called you after school. You didn't pick up. I called alot of times. You never answered. So I went to meet my primary school friends. Was tat wrong? Okaye, Leave that. I know that BLACK DOG was the one who called you. She said she was going swimming with you. Won't that make me even more fed up? Why do people have to do this. You're okaye one dayy and then the next dayy, you're not. What do you think I am? Even after all this, I still Love you. I really dont know whatt to sayy. I might as well take a gun and put it to my head, get it over with. I dont wanna do this. Haix.

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