I had to go through all these shitty stuffs all by myself. Wow. If you think being so strong is easy, why not try being strong enough to tolerate everyone's actions. I feel that I'm getting onto my nerves. What is your fucking problem? My only support, Love, Energy and Happiness being gone so soon. I don't want that to happen. Telling you my feeling is wrong. Showing Anger is wrong. Having Moodswings is wrong. Tell me whatt else is wrong? I've been seeing myself as a worrier. Worried about everything. Don't put the blame on me. I never blamed you for my character or studies. I usually, no, ALWAYS blame MYSELF for YOUR LIFE AND MINE. Cool huh? Standing Ovation La! Can give me the award for being the MOST PATIENT, MOST FORGIVABLE AND MOST QUIET AWARD! Wow. I'll be honoured. I know people aren't perfect. Thats the reason mistakes are made and forgiven. I can't be your perfect girlfriend. I too have some mistakes in me. Some can be changed but not all. Don't judge me, unless you have lived my shitty life. I dont blame you. I blame myself. FOR BEING SO.......... Nvm. Will someone understand me. If being in Love is so heart-breaking, why must even god create the LOVE between ADAM and EVE. Whyy? Why must there be heart which can be broken? Why must there be a Feeling called LOVE, when the only thing it could do was to go around and break peoples' heart. ANTI-LOVE? How long have I been going through this? Someone tell me! I lost count. I see couples in mY SCHOOL walking happily. We were once like that. BUT NOW? Things have changed and people have changed drastically. The only thing I do at school is, SCRIBBLING ON AFIF'S TABLE. Its shows my entire feelings. Pity the table. And yea, guess what? I've statrted self-pitying myself. Wonderful aint it? It makes me feel better. Haix. I have no more tears to cry!!! Arghhh. I feel damn EFFED UP!

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